He said those words to me last night. I couldn’t be happier right now, and to tell you the truth, it scares me how strong of a hold he has on me. The reality of the situation is that there are two possible outcomes…either we break up or get married. That’s the perspective I’m trying to have with this. It may have taken us a while to get to where we are now, but I’m finally beginning to see that this was for the better. Waiting was probably the best thing we could have done for this relationship. He tells me he still regrets that he didn’t realize this sooner, but both of us are happy with each other and I can’t describe the feelings I have when I’m with him. I’ve never been this happy with someone before and I had no idea someone could make me this happy.
He said something to me the other night that kind of stuck with me…he said, “I can’t believe someone so beautiful and smart and sweet and kind and loving and talented would ever fall for a nerd like me.” He may be a nerd, but he returns all of what he claims me to be. He respects me, he makes me feel safe, and he loves me. I’d rather have someone sensitive who understands my feelings than not. As long as I am a priority in his life, I will accept him for who he is.
And it’s not just with words, but actions as well. He holds my hand in public, he looks into my eyes and I feel what he’s feeling, he gives me kisses when no one is looking, he always makes sure I’m comfortable. I couldn’t ask for anyone better. It may have taken us a while to get here, but if this is what was waiting for me on the other side, then I’m glad I held on a little longer. And here I was ready to say goodbye as soon as I graduated college.
When he told me he loved me, I already knew I loved him too. The things I did for him I wouldn’t have done for anyone else, and that’s how I know. They may seem like little things, but to him it meant the world and that’s all that matters to me. He has my heart completely, I just hope he takes good care of it.