Yup, so it’s going to take me a while to get used to this…not talking to him every night, trying to see him in a different light. This sucks, I should’ve known this was coming. It was only a matter of time. It also sucks that this is how I have to spend my last year of college. For me, the best way I can get over this is if I don’t see or speak to him (unless I have to). We didn’t talk all weekend, then Sunday night we did and we sort of cleared the air. I’m still hurt and disappointed, but it is what it is and I’m actually glad that this happened now instead of later. I just hate that I’ve been lead on this whole time. He keeps making excuses for himself, saying he did’t want to lose me and didn’t want to ruin the friendship, etc. I’m done. Two times is enough. I hate that I’m so stubborn sometimes.